Chapter 80
I had finally clenched and unclenched my fist around the small and dainty necklace in my hand. The necklace I had stolen from Zara’s room resorted to stealing small nick–nacks from her room, just so I and my wolf could feel closer to her. I would have never thought I would do this, but desperation makes you do a lot of things.
It was a small heart–shaped pendant, probably gifted by her brother, and i remembered clearly that she wore it on our first date back at the cabin. She was pretty nervous the whole car ride and kept twisting her handl around the string. I had resisted yanking her hand away from the pretty necklace, entwining our hands together and calming her down.
Zara never really liked wearing heavy accessories. I fingered the pendant on the chain and wondered why I never got a random present for her. Hoyfriends do that kind of stuff, don’t they, buying their girlfriends meaningful gifts to remember them by
Well, I had given her a pretty amazing gilt, something she’ll never be able to forget, I thought sarcastically. I fell back on my hed, my legs dangling
off the edge
was a week ago that I had nearly passed out from the horrible pain, the pain which had been
I closed my eyes and darkly chuckled at my life. It wa caused because Zara was with someone che
Estill had a hard time believing that it had happened. For some time, I even refused to believe that Zara could do such a thing. I mean, I know that she made it clear that we weren’t together anymore but she had asked me to mark her. Did her feelings for me vanish in the three months she had been away from me? I refused to believe that
The mate only feels the pain of cheating when their other half intentionally goes ahead and decides to be with someone. So, it was pretty clear that
I clenched my eyes shut as despair washed over me once again. My wolf hadn’t been in contact with me this entire week. He was somewhere in the back of my mind, crying for the loss of his mate. He didn’t blame me nor did he blame her, he just cut off his ties with me and left me alone with any dark thoughts.
Questions and insecurities plagued me day and night. Granted, I hadn’t felt any pain after last Saturday and I had no idea what this meant. Who was she with? Was it someone from her new school or was it someone close to where she was living? Was it a werewolf or was it a human? Did she really like him, nuybe even love him if she had decided to take that step with whoever it wast
Jealousy coursed through me every time I thought about the guy she was with, who was spending time with my mate. I clenched my eyes shut again as tears full of helplessness and anguish rolled down my checks.
My parents were shocked too and when their shock wore off, they told me that the pain decreases with time and gets easier to handle. That was a shitty thing to say at that moment because it proved that they believed that there were chances Zara would do it again.
How far did she go anyway? Did she have sex with some other guy? Was it a wild makeout session with some hard groping? Or was it just some kissest Endless questions raced through my mind, making me lose my mind. So, I tried my best to not think about any of them. I kept trying to stop thinking Period.
Gossip traveled through the pack like wildfire and I was pretty sure everyone knew about my cries of anguish in the middle of the night last week. It would clearly explain why everyone was subtly trying to avoid me and give me a clear berth. They were afraid that I was going to blow up any
Nothing was worse than a jilted Alpha’s wrathit
Instead of thinking and letting my imaginations run wild, I chose to close off my mind and focus on the pack duties. I acted like a robot, mechanically performing my obligation, because even if my life was fucked up. I still had a pack to look after, which was under threat. I pushed myself hunder and hander and motivated everyone to push themselves to do their best. At least something good was coming out of this.
A freble knock on my door snapped me out of my depressing thoughts. I hastily wiped away the tears from iny face and hid Zara’s necklace in my
evealed Samantha
timidly standing on the threshold. I sighed silently at finding her here.
had mucha contact with Samantha since Zara’s departure because I was so busy keeping myself together. I had no idea what Samantha’s
almout whatever happened but I wouldn’t be surprised if she blamed me for sending our of her best friends away and getting the other
bla cautiously ended my real and aboard the door behind her. Her gaze roamed around
ad my room and she leaned her b
of you at the hunt today” She said, no amount of ammopance or disappointment in her voice
“Year” Irhed and shaftedfortably on my bed under her soft gaze
een finally appointed as the new beta of the park. Simultanenly, Samamba had been passed down the position of
though I was jealous and hated my life. I will attended the event. I was the alpha..
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Even more duan that. Aiden was my best friend and I wanted to be there for one of the best days of his life. I wasn’t going to let my life problems get in the way of our friendslups. Lhad learned to compartmentalize my feelings and I think I was doing a pretty good job of it.
After the cricinony, there was supposed to be a celebratory pack hunting event to commemorate the new bera couple of the pack. I had refrained. from participating in it because as the new lieta, Alden was supposed to kill a big enough animal that could be shared by the whole pack. I didn’t need to be there and everyone knew that. My parents and I had stayed back to watch the new beta take charge of the pack for the first time. It was i proual usomrut for my best friend and his mate.
She hesitantly stepped forward and came to sit beside the beil.
“I miss her, you knowe.” Her voice rang out in the quiet room and my body stiffened because I knew who she was talking about. No one had the nerve to talk about Zara jo my face because they knew it was a sensitive topic for me and they didn’t want to face my wrath
“I do too” I said quietly, which slidiot completely describe how I felt but I knew she got the message.
“She hasn’t been in contact with me, you know. I mean I know that she needed to get away because of everything that was happening but she could have stayed in inaich with me. A simple message stating that she was alive and safe would have been great.” She ranted, allowing me to know how hurt she was at Zara’s actions. This was the find time I had heard about this. Aiden must have heard this time and again because if something was bothering Samantha, she believed in speaking out loud about it, preferably to someone who would listen to her.
“I’m sorry that she hurt you and I’m even more sorry
She chuckled. I know you’re sorry but it’s not your fault”
My surprised gaze moved to her. What do you mean
my actions led to that” I said, twiddling my thumbs in nervousness.
“I think your relationship was built on really cocky grounds and this thing was a final blow that led to everything crumbling down. Your history with Zara is one of a a kind. I haven’t seen more messed up mates than you.
“Yeah, thanks for that,” I said dryly.
“Honestly. I’m so surprised that Natalie even slept with you. She has hated you so much and she even advised Zara against giving you a chance after you rejected her.”
This surprised me even more. She hated me! She doesn’t act like that. Could’ve surprised me
The situation has changed now, silly. You are the father of her child. She can’t go around hating you forever. She’s a mother now, she has to prioritize her child before her personal feelings and that includes getting over her hate for you and accepting that you are going to be a permanent part of her life from now on
1 looked at her and took her words in. She was right, of course, she was. Wasn’t 1 keeping my depressing thoughts about this whole situation aside and trying my best to be there for my child, who was going to be here in a few months? We had grown up a lot in these months. We had matured so mach and lave learned to keep the things that mattered to us at the foremost.
1 smiled at her. “You’r a really good mate for Aiden.”
She blushed as I said those words and I laughed at her reaction. Their honeymoon phase wasn’t over yes.
“You know, sometimes
metimes I get jealous of you two. The way you two are so great together and accept each other.” I said waiting for her blush to subside.
“Really?” She asked, her eyes round and surprised.
I nodded. “Sometimes, when I look at you guys together, I can’t help but imagine the short ume 1 spent with Zara. Those were the best days of my life 171 probably never feel like that again?
“Hey, don’t say things like that. She could very
ry well co
come back and forgive you? She touched my shoulder gently and I resisted the urge to burst
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her, and at
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bed my body. I somehow controlled myself and looked at Samantha She too, had mean streaming down her tar (peuple. She empatlazed with me but eveni didn’t have any answer to my questions
